The Real Slim Shady

Alright, y’all. I’m back from the dead.

And, as usual, I’ve got a lot to say. 

Lately I’ve been finding myself caught in a fit of nostalgia as I meet the crossroads marking the end of one era and the start of another. It’s my last semester of undergrad and, man, have these 4 years been a whole lot of a lot. 

Life truly moves so fast and I know it will move even faster once I graduate, so I’ve been attempting a semester-long balancing act of the college experience and preparing for my future. I’ve always been more comfortable thinking 10 steps ahead, so it’s a bit necessary for me that I don’t topple over - the pressure is on. 

I’m living a double-life between academia and the party scene, from hustling through grad school apps to bar hopping on Taco Tuesday, but it’s quite exhausting being an IT girl with a brain like Berkeley. Woe is me. 

In the midst of all that, I’m trying to figure out who the hell I am. I think I’ve always had the confidence to maintain some semblance of a sense of self throughout my life, but, per the name of this whole blog I’ve got goin’ on, I’ve been evolving. I’ve been through a lot in just these past 4 years alone, and I’ve adapted myself to changes along the way, resulting in a chameleon effect of sorts. The problem is, with all these layers, it’s often difficult to recognize who I am at my core. I feel like I’ve only just started scratching the surface. 

So that’s basically why I’ve been MIA. I’ve been needing to do the inner work and figure it all out. And, honestly y’all, I’ve just been BUSY…and it’s my own damn fault for deciding to load so much on my plate this last semester, but, hey, what can I say? I’m ambitious.

As utterly draining as it all is though, it’s everything. I find it absolutely invigorating and, at the end of the day, this is what my twenties are supposed to be like: hungry to thrive and hungover.

When life starts to feel like it’s moving a little too fast, I’ve learned to allow myself the space to breathe, whether that means enjoying my own company or saying yes to spontaneity. I now trust that I can roll with the punches and still have a good time. 

After all, I am graduating in T-3 weeks - I’ve got a lot to enjoy and celebrate before I officially start my “big girl life”. 

And that’s on work hard, play hard. Live your life on your terms, always. 

Ahhh, it’s good to be back. More updates to come soon, loves…

Cheers!

xx